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Desires and demands (or theory and practice, episode 612)
August 10, 2006
I’ve been thinking a lot recently about the difference between what I like in the porn I watch and what I feel comfortable asking for in the porn I make. Its something of a gap between fantasy and reality – porn watching is often fantasy fulfillment for me as it is for many people, but (as of last week) porn making is a reality for me. There was a big gap between what I would do as a model and what I will do in my personal sex life, and that personal/professional gap seems to have transferred on over to porn production and directing as well.
As far as these things go, my porn is not ferociously hardcore – yes, there are cocks and cunts and they touch each other and stuff (oh! oh! and the cocks touch each other too!) – but there’s no spitting, choking, facials, gaping assholes, general nastiness or name-calling. In some ways, I’m a little surprised at myself, because these are things I like in the porn I watch and the sex I have – but it didn’t translate over as easily as I assumed it would.
There are some requirements I felt perfectly at ease imposing on my performers – like my rule against French pedicures and manicures, because as a creepy foot fetishist I hate them and it is my goddamn movie. But I didn’t quite feel right about demanding the ole hot and nasty from people. On one level, this is a mistake because porn performers are professionals, paid to do sex acts (and people) that they aren’t always necessarily delighted with, but remain professional about. So in that respect I was a bad, lax director who let my performers take the easy and comfortable road. On the other hand, professional or not, this is sex we’re talking about, and I just didn’t feel good about demanding for people to have sex they don’t want or simply aren’t keen on.
I discovered that the balance between pushing a performer and backing off is a subtle but important one, and I erred on the side of caution. If I had pushed more, I might have gotten more extreme, dirty stuff, or I may have gotten the performers angry with me and had them look angry on camera (and be angry in real life, which is worse). This porno stuff, it isn’t as easy as it looks.
Posted by Dacia at August 10, 2006 09:11 AM
Comments
Actually, some choking and slapping might have made the scene a bit more fun. I was pretty nervous though, as it was my first time in porn.
If I ended up doing something that was turning you on, I’d want to try to do it. Even if it as something I wouldn’t do outside of porn.
It’s taking me some time to shake out how I feel about the experience, but the more time that passes, the more I’m looking back on it as something really fun, something that I’d enjoy doing again, and something I’d want to do better if there’s a next time.
I hope you had at least as much fun as I did.
Posted by: semi nonymous 'talent' at August 10, 2006 12:27 PM
And there’s nothing that kills excitement faster than a porn performer suddenly interrupting the scene because they can’t take what’s going on.
Posted by: litlfrog at August 11, 2006 09:55 AM
I think you are a sensitive and intelligent woman.This would be a tricky question for me too. No final thoughts here,just I feel ya.I’ll keep reading…
Posted by: Chica at August 11, 2006 08:13 PM
As the old cock crows, so does the young… Rebecca
Posted by: Rebecca at November 29, 2006 06:04 AM
Like cures like… Arnold
Posted by: Arnold at November 29, 2006 06:07 AM
