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To the moon
September 12, 2005
In a recent correspondence with a reader about where I’m at and what I’m up to, he commented:
In my opinion, the silent pink elephant in your blog has always been, and continues to be the question: “where are you going?”
That IS the question isn’t it? But really, where are we all going? Ok, I won’t wax philosophical and avoid the question. But the truth is: I don’t know!
It’s funny, because I’ve always been The Girl With the Plan. Well, guess what? I don’t really have much of a plan right now beyond the completion of my thesis and master’s degree. And you know what? It isn’t a bad thing.
I know I’m precocious in many ways, but in many ways I’m also a 25 year old kid. In the last year or so I’ve finally given that kid some room to breathe and I’ve started to cut myself some slack. Perhaps it’s a bit short-sighted to do things because they are interesting and strike my fancy, but I’ve been pushing myself to be a much more experiential person, which is working out okay.
At the same time, I am building something. The reason its okay to not know what precisely that is that I don’t see life as having a pinnacle “This is It” kind of moment. I’m planning on a long series of lovely and challenging times. So, I don’t know what I’m going to be when I grow up, but it’ll probably be kinda interesting. 10 years from now? 5 years from now? One year from now? I don’t know. I do know that who I am and what I’m doing now is a crucial part of who I’ll become. You’ll just have to stick around if you want answers.
Posted by Dacia at September 12, 2005 11:26 PM
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Pink elephants… wait, don’t those signify drunkenness?
Posted by: Belle at September 13, 2005 06:54 AM
For myself, I would note that I “had it all figured out” when I was 25.
10 years later I had it all figured out again… but with totally different answers.
In the end all we really get is a lamp for the path, so we can see our next step. We might have a destination in mind that motivates us to move forward, but in the end, our destination - even when it is the one we had intended, is rarely what we believe it to be. It is just a part of growth, and the important thing is to simply move forward by experiencing life.
Only by experience can we really learn anything, or grow. When we stop moving forward we stagnate.
Posted by: Algor_Langeaux at September 13, 2005 08:08 AM
Some times we paddle, some times we float, no matter how you do it, you still end up exactly where you need to be.
-G
Posted by: Garrison Steelle at September 13, 2005 08:43 AM
Who said, “Life is what happens while you make other plans”?
Posted by: wax_qube at September 13, 2005 03:58 PM
My, I didn’t realize you’re about the same age as Cassie. That’s quite interesting on a certain level. She certainly had your drive and intensity, though hadn’t found herself by 25 to even finish college.
Pardon my musing out loud, but the coincidence caught my attention. You ARE precocious, and should be in no hurry to “get on with life.” Enjoy yourself and let life catch up to you.
Posted by: w. s. cross at September 14, 2005 10:45 AM
