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Free fall
January 12, 2005
Today I quit my job.
It was partly premeditated, and partly I’m doing this now.
I feel like I completely own my life right now, which is a pretty awesome feeling. I also feel a little like I’ve kicked my own feet out form underneath me. But I supposed that’s better than being surprised by someone or soemthing else causing that to happen.
One of my charming and disarming attributes has always been my predilection for being a control freak. I’ve always been into havgin a very ordered and well-planned life, though that got fucked up a year and a half ago when I got laid off from a job that I cared too much about. At that moment, I had nothing, I felt worthless, like I’d basically been chewed up and spit out. I had no fucking plan.
In the last year and a half, I’ve learned to go with the flow, and maybe even be spontaneous now and again. I feel like I’m basically pretty well-armed with the tools to make the best out of situations and think on my feet. I am braver and braver about just living, and not feeling like I have to research the shit out of something before I jump.
So, enter a new era. Instead of just living from hand to mouth on part time work (a feat in and of itself), I’ll be living from -er- ass to mouth on sex work. And by that I mean – sex work is no longer my sideline, my safety net. It is my sustenance.
And: go.
Posted by Dacia at January 12, 2005 01:34 AM
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