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January 18, 2005

Before really getting down to it, we shot a few little preliminary items � one of which was Benny dressing me in my fabulous red dress, red and black garter belt, red and black bra, and red fishnets. Even though they had my measurements before I got there, the snaps on the dress couldn�t quite contain my breasts (no surprise really), and it sculpted itself around my ass in a way that meant there wasn�t to be much bending over. (Benny: �Ok, you�re all dressed, you just have to put your shoes on.� Me: �Uh, I can�t bend over that far.�) Anyway, these issues of fit were no big beef, as I wasn�t planning to be wearing the dress very long.

I hobbled upstairs, ready for my close up. We did a little bit of dialogue (one take per line, and I�m keeping the exact context a secret) and were ready to go. We started the scene off with a bit of a sloppy (condomed!) blowjob, during which I drooled on myself and eradicated my lipstick. When Benny dropped his pants I realized I was about to enjoy my first Prince Alberted cock. Yes it�s true, I myself have a genital piercing, but though I�ve seen and played with them on girls and seen scars left by them on boys, I�ve never gotten to play with one on a boy. Check off that life experience, thanks very much.

We then progressed into good old daty � dining at the Y (cunnilingus) in whore parlance. It may surprise you to know that unlike most women, receiving oral sex is not a favorite activity of mine � it rarely gets me off and often the enthusiastic giver chomps on my pierced hood in a bad way. Benny was able to lick me good and well, and I felt myself coming from a mere tongue on my clit, no fingers in my pussy. This, I thought, will be a good time.

Stoic pro that Benny is, there had been no off camera touchy-feely stuff, so we got acquainted with each other�s bodies as the tape rolled. Though we�d of course gone through the list of don�ts, the dos were a bit of a mystery. Granted, an on camera scene is not by any means the time to try that latest Cosmo sex tip out, because it may go awfully wrong: creating sexual catastrophes on camera is NOT the business we�re in. In a scene, you have to rock a double consciousness of a kind, considering whether or not the meat shot is visible from whatever angle and if your co-star is having a good time.

Well, Benny and I clicked pretty damn well, all things considered, and were definintely on the same wave length as far as rhythm and action go. We worked ourselves into a variety of positions, and he pulled my clothes off as we fucked. We paused now and again to wipe sweat off of ourselves, regroup and rehydrate. During these breaks, I chatted with the cameraman, a mohawked puppeteer, who was surprised that I�d never done a porn film before. We also had a really solid conversation about the politics of which side of the camera you choose to be on, as like me, he has no problem with seeing the action from either side.

Though the breaks were definitely pauses in the action, we were able to pick up where we�d left off pretty damn easily and build to several crescendos through the scene, with general sexual mayhem. When I�ve done non-commercial dirty things on video previously, I�ve always felt myself being very aware of where the camera was sitting, hyperaware of the camera and the process of taping itself, which in many ways inhibited me from fully being there in my skin. This time, all that disappeared, and I felt like I was thoroughly there in my sexual persona, being my own sexual self, which I�m certain will come across onscreen much better than awkward self-awareness.

Let me tell you: fucking under hot lights really takes it out of me. I slept liking a fucking dead person last night. Ample sleep is good, because tomorrow morning bright and early I�m starting my second semester of grad school.

I know I haven�t gone into superb blow-by-blow detail here, but that�s intentional � you�ll just have to wait for the DVD to get all the details! And yes, of course I�ll keep you updated on its release, I promise.

Posted by Dacia at January 18, 2005 12:35 AM